01 May 2025
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“Abandoned”
01 May 2025
“{how it feels} Refraction, distortion, questioning reality because it feels devastatingly unbelievable, trying to make sense of senseless actions and finding beauty outside the brutality. #therapeuticphotography #traumasurvivor #childhoodtraumasurvivor #abusesurvivor #cptsd #anxiety #depression #dissociation #bodymemories #somaticflashbacks #fightingforlife #copingthroughcreation”
29 Apr 2025
“{More than words could say—II} On the way home from my neurofeedback therapy appointments I don’t force myself to stay alert and function if my husband is with me and I don’t have to force myself to drive the 1 1/2 hour trip home. Though neurofeedback is a very helpful part of my healing journey, due to the nature of what I’m dealing with, it is extremely intense for me and not like what most people typically experience. When my husband is able to come with me and drive on the way home, I take off my glasses, recline my seat, try to survive and typically end up “disappearing” for a good portion of the long drive home. Sometimes things can be very intense in a way that is indescribable with words and a lot of the time this is also joined with a mixture of hope, recovery, healing, glimpses of experiencing a sense of safety and many things that are on a level I can’t explain with words. There is so much involved—including both terror and healing. When we get home and when I manage to open my eyes, I see my glasses lying where I left them on the console of our car when I needed to lay down because of all that I was experiencing and sometimes I don’t even have the strength to reach for them and put them on so my husband hands them to me, it reminds me of so many different things I am filled with—the devastation, fear, terror, sadness, being stuck and frozen, along with so many other things I can’t put into words, and I try to remember I am working very hard, there is hope, there are signs of the healing process, there is growth, I have support and I am still breathing (though I’m often not sure how this is possible). Just an ordinary photo of glasses….and to me, it communicates more than words could say. #therapeuticphotography #traumasurvivor #cptsd #anxiety #depression #fightingforlife #healingprocess”
29 Apr 2025
“{More than words could say—I} On the way home from my neurofeedback therapy appointments I don’t force myself to stay alert and function if my husband is with me and I don’t have to force myself to drive the 1 1/2 hour trip home. Though neurofeedback is a very helpful part of my healing journey, due to the nature of what I’m dealing with, it is extremely intense for me and not like what most people typically experience. When my husband is able to come with me and drive on the way home, I take off my glasses, recline my seat, try to survive and typically end up “disappearing” for a good portion of the long drive home. Sometimes things can be very intense in a way that is indescribable with words and a lot of the time this is also joined with a mixture of hope, recovery, healing, glimpses of experiencing a sense of safety and many things that are on a level I can’t explain with words. There is so much involved—including both terror and healing. When we get home and when I manage to open my eyes, I see my glasses lying where I left them on the console of our car when I needed to lay down because of all that I was experiencing and sometimes I don’t even have the strength to reach for them and put them on so my husband hands them to me, it reminds me of so many different things I am filled with—the devastation, fear, terror, sadness, being stuck and frozen, along with so many other things I can’t put into words, and I try to remember I am working very hard, there is hope, there are signs of the healing process, there is growth, I have support and I am still breathing (though I’m often not sure how this is possible). Just an ordinary photo of glasses….and to me, it communicates more than words could say. #therapeuticphotography #traumasurvivor #cptsd #anxiety #depression #fightingforlife #healingprocess”
29 Apr 2025
“Feeling cloudy #therapeuticphotography #traumasurvivor #childhoodtraumasurvivor #abusesurvivor #cptsd #anxiety #depression #dissociation #somaticmemories #whatitfeelslike #whentherearenowords #fightingforlife”